Letters

Letters 1904-01 from John Bauer to Ester Ellqvist, consisting of ten pages written on five thin, folded sheets of paper. Main writing handwritten in pink ink. LETTER TRANSCRIPT: .. [Page 1] Sjövik in Jönköping January 1904 .. Esther!!! Do you shell forlofva dough? ------Jasso ---- Yes. I should and should the field without battle. He is of course a large fellow with high hat and with a mustacher and maybe beard and everything. Without battle I. But it’s not .. [Page 2] because I can’ t swear on, that I don’ t next week meets got even more beautiful I want to do [exceeded: that] and you with. But marriage, that in which long, long and long the lifness, the - you know Hvad Strindberg says in an af its dramatic work? Maybe he’s lying gives, but he usually never lie. I have seen a marriage at close range and .. [Page 3] was vivid. Maybe it did not stand vividly but the word was strong. Let Mej not talk about that. I acknowledge that I cannot it One thing I have anyway received for mej. If you cannot think of ho- nom, the one with [exceeded: hvik] hat You must forgive dough, at the same time feel a knee [a piece of the letters is gone in the margin on this and the following rows] la af samaf na so maybe some time comm more when you are going to do The Nota bene du high act .. [Page 4] him and he love dough. I mean the impossible - fair, not to love fa to his own child their own little lifs For children are still the vack the most present. Children is englar on earth. [almost obliterated word] should be able to work out a piece of jewelry There you have some elves You who asked for it may blame the dej soul. I thinks it sounds ripe and lesbian. She has traveled now, the girl [Page 5] because I’m afraid not Then feel! You have self once said: Lofva mej to never kill John and I shall not kill. Without bloodshed I want to leave the field. But bed mej not speak alvarsive in such difficult situations things like marriage and marital happiness. Not right now I do not commit anything af that. Not at all I don’t think I know hvad true love .. [Page 6] is. It must be grasp- gonting collosal Well maybe anyway - But I’m young than a time I want to love everything that beautifully and beautifully and if I know a unequivocal desire to kiss something beautiful, beautiful now the Linians in the mouth or colour or the whole, so do I do. Hanging I don’t get it hva? Would I not get it .. [Page 7] with the blue eyes and the laughter. Artelie stands [letters have disappeared in the margin on some rows] so empty and mocking. I forgot about the sentence with it, I will work there. Know you, I know mej as a large vomit. You Seal That I’m crank. but it wants I do not be. A good friend scream mej here a year I was weak and light moved. Is it [overcast word] so you mean? Weak I am enough. You I want amaze the world. It believes [Page 8] I do not go. I am enough weak. Near. you know. It’s where also elves and lessels I am so lessen. I write this stuff bedrill bedding. I have have been ill. right feel sick says dom. Actually I should to write about this so-called letter. But the dough may be. Bed mej not burn your bref I want to hide them as my biggest tax and when [on the following two lines, the words seem to have been written over a week] I once glanced vi a girl, she and I [the text continues at the top of the same page written upside down] loose --- [?] together. finds she no joy in it I let immediately to distinguish mej. Farewell John .. [Page 9] Yes precisely the same as between thought and action! That’s enough so. Hva? If so, I prefer to trade. Lefva for the present, enjoy for the moment, but avoid the suffering. I always think has done so. The pain may be a pleasure it believes I mej have noticed, but a ladder in the breeding you call for gravity. Ma can not throw themselves into it, so .. [Page 10] b. Then we leave up to Dej till - b. You take well friendly against us? Mej may you lof being alra fair to. The 24 I rent one floor at Grand and so a frack and I put mej in the Grand Salon and waiting. Cooking start at 11 BC Join to K--- [?] at. 7 BC I think you will come to enter Health. John John