Letters

Letter undated from John Bauer to Ester Ellqvist, consisting of four pages written on the front and back of a thin, folded sheet of paper. Main writing handwritten in pencil. On the front page there is clustered in red ink. The letter is unfinished and lacks signature. The style of hand suggests John Bauer as a sender. .. LETTER TRANSCRIPT: .. [Page 1] rara rara Esther. Hvad now egenlegen I pale so evil for your black paper in --- [?] Ester my I’m getting the core in the dough for where passing day. And I am a drug about dough about the nights. I did hall lan for And always I’m drugging on the same time about our cottage. O du my own little Esther. You I think al--- [?] more think about it even [Inscribed line difficult to read] It’s the beginning and the end of everyone my thoughts. And we shall procure us the you Ester you know sometimes I know mej tight despite my great weakness. I -- [?] weak that I’m crying out of time sometimes af grief --- [?] --- [?], but i among af glade Ja --- [?] --- [?] --- [?] --- [?] --- [?] beautiful you are [unreadable] you are now muck For that, our s--- [?] sandy --- [?] After all, I did not have to doubt on .. [Page 2] or fear grosshand the Laren with a Vine.[?] I’ve set up and got drunk down in evening. The great loneliness has been around mej. I ä sålonde du Esther. I have fired a steeped bonfire at the [?] I now set [written obliquely over the upper row: and] swept and come on a good house Mör Min atelje is so funny at the rail, a bonfire I kanner mej so calm and tr-gg [?] When I hear the birches spray It’s too mej it’s just burning for Mej, for Mej and my Drugs .. [Page 3] Esther min hvarfor did you not sit [?] on the trap at my feet. I dreamed you sat there and I spoke at the Dej and you answered but both stared into the fire until the glow began to be blackened. I Never dared to look at dough. I stared stubbornly in the fire. Had I seen on dough you had before - swollen. I didn’t see dough not kiss dough not feel like your hand in mine. I Disted I avoided this you sit next to mej and I dreamed you did it Ester sk [?] never again John kiss mej now] When you .. [Page 4] then asking mej lifs lefvnde with your purple body --- [?] lips your eyes your hair then you’ll have it sawn. don’t laugh it in bref when You are 40 miles far away You never really know the treason safe for mej in Stockholm I never intend to speak m for dough when I arrived If I were to come Öfverraskad to you become and it’s manga many kisses you ä skyl you mej