Letters

Letter undated from John Bauer to Ester Ellqvist consisting of four pages written on the front and back of a folded sheet of paper. Up and down the last page, another letter is written, which begins in the text of the first letter, and continues during the streak. Main writing written in pencil. The first letter seems to be unfinished and lacks signature. Signature, however, is at the bottom of the second letter. .. LETTER TRANSCRIPT: .. [Page 1] Thanks Reply May sincerely Esther min. Has it been your meaning your [overrun: up] decision to make a decision to shoot dough? Would you really the same days hours reached by the same plans as me [Constructed: Your husband I can’ t I must not become --- [?] i --- [?] that --- [?] ---- [?] I don’t want to be] I’m sick Esther my [Constructed: You] I can’t say Dead the whole sinking more than a crime if I now made dough for mine [exceeded: O] but Esther min i i can’t even do dough for mine [here is marked with a dash that the play ends. Next and below are words that belong to the last sheet but page 4a of this transcript] .. [Page 2] I have not been able to. You Says I Get You work. I want but can not. [Constructed with a big cross: Do you want a man who cannot work as you must in time teach dough aphsky aphsky] Esther my own little rara. If I could marry dough now. Customer I work would I dare to pick up comb Pen for the Bit and all the other. I the stack can gain or can be on count any help. As things now stand I find out to my self and soulf bear responsibility. .. [Page 3] You must not call mej coward. It would be an indecent caring about me now had courage. If you knew my Esther hat I have hoped to feel in this winter passed. I would like to know healthy and capable. I would learn mej work and got mej feel I was the man had the right to play, the man who had the right to require relatives' pendants for what he went, the man who was an artist and could work. I have only learned to despise John Bauer. I never dare to trust him, not even in --- [?] .. [Page 4a] [written at the bottom of the last leaf, during the stroke] small thing, for he is inconclusive in its weakness. .. [inscribed upside down here: Brother Werner. It is the beginning of a completely different letter that continues on page 4b] .. [inscribed on the slab and on the first leaf: --- [?] simple cheek [?] a little [?]] You my stacks pinned [overturned and overdrawn: Esther] I keep so mycke af dej Vi [written at the bottom of the first page: must hope] .. [Page 4b] [another letter written upside down on the last page and beginning in the text of the second letter] Brother Werner [the rest is written during the streak] I’m harrowing down is fermented. Nevös and candidate for suicide. I probably irons. I has nothing been able to do [indrawn cross] I am jafliga Bed to God for mej arme sinner Fy fan health gossen and can do nothing I’m sprattling and whirls but nothing helps Your Goe Friend John B.